By Graham Hurley, CNN
(CNN) — Between slick ice and sharp skates, the chilled hollow of a hockey rink is where Colin Dorgan has experienced the most devastating and the most jubilant moments of his life – all within the span of a month.
The high school senior’s mother, brother and grandfather were killed in mid-February when gunfire pierced the clamor of sticks, skates and cheers during one of his games at an arena in Pawtucket, Rhode Island.
His life upended, Dorgan took some time to return to the rink, and when his skates hit the ice, the team captain performed like he hadn’t missed a moment. The divisional championship game this week played out like a movie. In double overtime, Dorgan scored the winning goal to send his team to the state championship.
But three seats in the arena that should have been filled by Dorgan’s biggest supporters were empty.
Retired firefighter and head coach of the Blackstone Valley Co-op hockey team Chris Librizzi has seen his share of tragedy up close. But nothing in his years on the job could have braced him for what he witnessed at the Dennis M. Lynch Arena.
“This was by far the worst that I’ve ever been to, because I was right there from the onset,” Librizzi said.
While his players scrambled off the ice, the former first responder rushed to the stands to treat the wounded.
After the shooting, returning to the rink was not an easy transition for anyone.
A heavy decision
The coaches gathered the team for a meeting a couple of days after the shooting to encourage the players to take some time to think about whether they wanted to continue, emphasizing there was no pressure if they wanted to stop.
“I got to thinking after that that this is not a way that Rhonda Dorgan, Aidan Dorgan and Gerald Dorgan would ever want Colin’s season to end, and not a way that they would want our season to end,” Librizzi explained about the decision to resume.
After circling back with the team and their families a few days later, Librizzi and the other coaches told the team they were going to keep playing.
“We want you to be a part of this team. Standing on the bench or standing in the stands with us, we’re going to continue the season,” Librizzi said.
At the same time, Librizzi had been meeting with Colin and his sister, Ava, each day following the shooting. Librizzi asked Colin about coming back to play for the rest of the season.
“I said, Colin, if you don’t want to come back to the team, I completely understand and I will support your decision, but I just want you to know that if you decide not to come back to this team, and I allow that to happen, your mom would have kicked my ass,” Librizzi said.
While Dorgan grieved, the team spent time together nearly every single day. The only exceptions were a couple of days when they were snowed in by the massive blizzard that gripped the region.
“The first two days back on the ice were incredibly difficult. Some of the players were hesitant on coming back and stepping foot on the ice,” Librizzi said.
They had regular workouts. They went to Topgolf. They had dinners together for 15 days straight. And perhaps most importantly, everyone participated in both individual and group counseling sessions to cope with the tragedy.
Librizzi had previously told the schools’ administration this year would mark the end of his 32-year coaching career. The coach has cancer and has undergone four surgeries over the past year.
“After this incident took place, I had a conversation with my wife, and she said, ‘This is your call. It’s up to you,’” he said. “I told her I didn’t feel it was right for me to leave them this year, so I’m